Awhile ago, I told a girl I loved her, I shouldn’t have…she was beautiful and kind and I had a crush on her. I sent her an email and I was so desperate and I panicked and said things I shouldn’t have and didn’t mean to. I didn’t expect her to say what I wanted to hear, and her reply was what I expected. I don’t know what would have happened even if I hadn’t sent the email I know what I wanted to.
I was always afraid to ask her out, I am a year younger than her, me approaching 20 her approaching 21 now. Does she think I’m immature? does she like me? would she go out with me? were the kind of questions that used to run through my head. I a year older than when I sent her the email but I still think about her…sad maybe but you’ve never seen her.
Maybe this blog is similar to the email but I need to write this out, I’m sorry I sent the email and I still wish I could apologise to her and take her out for a nice meal and a date. You can call me weird and you can laugh I don’t mind. All I want is the chance to say sorry and have the chance to tell her how much it would mean to me if she would go out with me.
I don’t suppose anyone has a genie who grants wishes?